It was on a fine Sunday morning (last week). I was postcall. The long Saturday at work I had the day prior, made me couldn't wait to go back to my family as soon as I finished my shift. Who likes working on a weekend right?..and to come home to my little one, is a thing to look forward to daily.
Reached home, had breakfast..rest for awhile. Then I unpacked my cooler bag to keep my EBM that I managed to pump during the busy oncall.
Went to my deep freezer and found that the door was not properly closed!!..I HAD THE SHOCK OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!...
|All cair ;(|
All my EBM..the hardwork throughout the past 3 months gone down the drain when all my EBM got thawed!!!!...
I wasn't aware that I couldn't refreeze thawed milk even though it is still cold. I sought advices from people in FB, and most of them said even a partially thawed milk cannot be refreezed..but some said the one that has crystal ice, can.
Can you feel what I felt mommies??...I was just so speechless..my jaw dropped..and minutes after I found myself doing Adele: i'm rolling in the deeeeeeeeeeep...CRYING!!!!...
About 40 plastic bags and bottles full with EBM got wasted. I asked my husband to throw it cause it was just killing me :(.
Worried of couldn't continue supplying EBM for my baby, I felt like closing one eye and refreeze the ones that were partially thawed. Until my husband said that he wouldn't risk our son just because I wanted to exclusively breastfed him, I realised that I had acted foolishly.. Am I out of my mind???..felt so stupid!
|Ready to be thrown|
Since I started working, my milk production has gone down.. Normally I was able to express almost 12oz in 15 minutes..now I only managed to get only half of it....in my current state, I couldn't cope with 'pump harini, for supply hari esok' cos I wouldn't be able to do so..my son dah start minum banyak..and there are times he can finish 7oz in one go.. :(
After checking all the EBM, I only managed to save around 15 packets/bottles.. for that I felt grateful, but couldn't help myself from getting stressed up knowing that I had to double my effort from now onwards..
After the incidence, I was in a very stress mode for the next 2-3 days.. Husband kept reminding me that it was not worth it and it would only jeopardise my milk production further.
Husband bought a latch to make sure it won't happen again... I recommend for those who are planning to buy a deep-freeze, beli the ones yang bukaan pintu di bahagian atas..bukan tepi..
I've started taking Maxolon ever since. Malas nak makan-makan supplement that claimed to boost up milk production. I never like supplements, I'm just plain lazy. So Maxolon would be a better choice, telan for 2 weeks je. Alhamdulillah after 2 days of Maxolon, I can see the difference, and Alhamdulillah, I can feel that it's getting back to normal.
ALLAH maha berkuasa. Dia boleh tarik rezeki kita bila-bila masa yang di-kehendakiNya. Kalau bukan dari segi harta, atau nyawa, EBM pon boleh. I should be more grateful now...insaf...insaf...
I'm sure all mommies out there understand how I feel, and..yes..breastfeeding is such a big deal for me..
And for you sayang, mommy will try hard to give you the best... I love you