Knowing that I had to leave him behind to a complete stranger, it brought me to tears the first morning..haha..lawak je..I called up my husband while driving to work with teary eyes..LOL. The second day it got better, but still felt a bit sad. That boy have no idea that I was gonna leave him behind, he just smiled, looking all chirpy like any other morning.
I was so worried that I had to jot few things down on a piece of paper for her reference; like what time he should be sleeping, how long, and how to jaga my EBM, how to reach me in the hospital in case she can't get thru my handphone, etc.
The first day, I called the babysitter twice to ask my baby's progress..kalau ikutkan nak je call every 3 to 4 hours but it doesn't look nice pulak kan. First day he only drank about 8 oz je, poor baby, and his nap time is a bit lari, maybe he's adapting to a new place. Luckily his bedtime tak lari sangat and he slept 12 hours straight like he normally does.
The second day I was too busy in NICU (Neonatal Intensive Care Unit), so had my mom to drop by and asked how he was doing. Alhamdulliah, dia ok but did not drink much in the morning. However in the afternoon, he drank 10oz straight!!..haha..
The kakak has previously looked after few other babies before and she told me she has experience handling EBM..so tak de la risau sangat. I gave her 4 bottles of my EBM in a cooler box and reminded her to keep in a fridge. When I came to pick my son after work, I was so surprise to find that all the bottles were still in the cooler box!..OMG..I was so geram but I just hide it and kept cool. My only worry is that what if my son was actually drinking stale milk??!, but so far he is still ok, no AGE or whatsoever, alhamdulillah. I instructed her again how to jaga my EBM.
I was in-charge of clinic the first day, so managed to pump twice, cos the afternoon clinic was a bit free. Brought back 16Oz. The second day I was already posted to NICU..only managed to pump once and brought back only 10oz. My supply is depleting!! :(
Seeing all the sick and cute babies in NICU makes me think of my baby even more. I'm so grateful that he is healthy and bam bam..hehe. One thing for sure, I will never look at them the way I looked at them before. When I look at them now, I feel they are mine..tiny little creatures just like my baby. I want to treat them nice and as best I could.
I can't wait for weekend to come!..I miss the days where I get to bathe my baby in the morning and chat with him the whole day..arghh..it's killing me!!..I know maybe baru2 je mcm ni kan, the "I'm-a-new-mommy" syndrome :)
I'm sending him off at 7 in the morning and pick him up around 530pm (that if I get to leave at 5pm sharp). Since his bedtime is at 7pm, I'll make sure we gonna spend quality time together..I direct feed him at least 10 minutes before sending him off, and after work before he goes to bed. I purposely asked the kakak not to bathe him so that my husband will bathe him, daddy-son bonding session..hehe. After he goes to bed, then only I can mandi and all, while my husband gets ready for his Aikido class.
I know it's gonna be the same routine every single day from now onwards. I really hope to manage time wisely..after all, Allah give us 24 hours in a day, and that should be enough time if we are ABLE to manage it well. I pray for the best!!
On the other note, meet my new shoes to work :)
Konon-konon sebab stress nak keja, had to buy new shoes so that rasa lebih bersemangat..haha. Padahal sebab kaki dah besar cause I haven't reached my pre-pregnancy weight yet, I'll give another one or two months and see..
oh..I miss being 50kg!
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